[Page 26.]

[Name : Winter Solstice]
[Time : Mar. 28 2009 :38 am]

[ ” Brrr ” ever so gorgeous but bone chillingly cold and her name is winter and even since the very beginning i was madly infatuated with you …from the shimmer in your eyes … to the curves on down to your thighs . i was hooked and oblivous to my own demise 

I spent countless days in your embrace sharing memories i thought were forever … pretending you were divine but over time i had to rewind and realize you were unrighteously sublime … growing ill of you .. thinking of how much ” You make me so sick ” wishing i never stood outside on that cold december 21 ]

[Page 25.]

[Cont.]

[Name: the absense of sanity in a writer]

[Time : mar. 21, 2009 12:46]

[ Whom we are cannot be describe in words .. yet these words which cannot describe us can paint vivid portaits of eternal anarchy . these words bare deep concepts that submerge common logic and concieve a new train of thought . these are words inwhich allows us grant temporary passage of understanding of what we may be . and with those words we are allowed to control all .  
to manipulate
to decieve 
to tell truths because these our thee tools of our trade ]

[Page 24.]

[Cont.]

[Name : Pride of a lycan / rise ]

[Time : March 20th 5:50]


Why does thou forsake our existence and place us within the deepest bowels of thy's hierarchy even when thy strength rivals yours , you shun whom we are and gaze down at us as if we are to be compared to savage beast with no minds . you emprison thy brethren within the realms of slavery and servitude .  place your shackles on our freedom and your chains on our nature . you hunt and butcher thy brethren whom you cant control , but the fear that thou possess is plain of sight and we can see it . you fear our very presence for that what we become is the epitome of strength and your place on the throne is threatened , but this full moon marks thee beginning of OUR ascension Thou shalt not accept this fate for that thee tides of blood that flows through our united veins has shifted leaving our PRIDE raging and the sound of freedom and rebellion to roar throught this dismal night . we shall break your chains , shatter your shackle and at that moment we shall shed our skin and rise for that we are Lycan 

[Page 23.]

[Cont.]

[Name : Hello Mr.Grimm]

[Time : March 4th 12:44AM]

[The air is field with the scent of sulfur , the fog grows thick and in the distance you hear something ... snickering then two red eys appears first before the rest presents itself ...

Grimm standing there gazing toward THEM 

he stands only so tall , with eyes that burn as if they were made up of hot coals and a soul filled with Napalm As well as An omnious grin which remains constant almost as if he enjoys this agony smoldering in his heart and burning through his flesh . Nothing means anything to him ...but one thing that is certain is that life is nothing but a game and people are the pieces . HE is not one of us nor shall he ever be . he is the fear in our hearts and the grimm fate we all share]

[Page 22.]

[Cont.]

[Title : broken clock ]

[Time : feb 27 2009 4:20 am]

[As i walk along this beach the fairys whispers in my ears , the mermaids frolic beneath my feet and then i kneel to grasp a hand of sand as ponder how time has slipped through my fingers and im lost within my own duality my pride rages in one half me hindering anything that my emotions can muster and my heart weaps at those ive ive lost , then i leave these depressing thoughts to something more current ... look at such beauty i created yet cant fully embrace due to petty quarrels and ive taken a flower and caused it to wither unrighteously . -sigh- why does time sit still to cause me to feel tides more pain and submerge my happiness .... ]

[Page 21. ]

[Cont.]

[Name : ]

[Time : Febuary 12 2009 10:55 AM]

[ Alone I stand with you in hand or maybe on my side .. the strength and skill we possess is a concept in which its brilliance stands out as a moonlight sonata and and how does such a thing exist couldnt be fathomed when gazed upon some stare as if this were a star filled evening engulfed by shear appreciation for such beauty and others screech silently in terror for that the image of a beastial being is given human form. whether i slay or protect doesnt matter for that i cannot pick a side ... stand in the light creep amongst the shadows because certainly we would tip the scales but this does not matter neither because i have " you " and with " you " i am able wander for all eternity and pass any obstacle that awaits ]

[Page 20.]

[Cont.]

[Satsui no Hadō / Surge of Murderous Inent]

Time = January 21 , 2009 9:51 pm

[ ...... [Howling] 

Satsui no Hadō why do we hear IT murmuring in my distance thoughts trying to cause such intentions to spill forth plagued by the questions of ..

" why do I fight ? Is to grow stronger or become a war-Monger ? " 

As I continue to stomp into this coliseum leaving nothing but Dead silence swimming in the misery and shattered dreams of my fallen adversaries in my freshly planted absence 

staring forward torwards the pending chaos .. fighting battle after battle with many .. men ... women and all whom oppose and amongst them is HIM the man baring many resemblances to myself But not quite me . he smirks in a deviant and defiant manner and glares my direction with sinister bloodthirsty eyes .. full of undeniable drive and motivation then he Shrudely gestures he wants my attention

" Why do WE fight " he snarls ... My blood boils my veins wretch back and forth painfully and i Reply " ... " ]

[Page 19. ]

[Cont.]

[Random weather]

time = january 19 , 2009 11:16 pm

[ Before He got to your place he had a feeling you were feeling more like a summer day .... with your temperature rising , you growing ever more fustrated and bothered ... but Yet when he entered thee.Kid noticed that beautiful spring time smile shining obscuring His vision and the heavy overcast below had Him going .

so when he touched you .. the clouds got thicker and with ever kiss the skies got darker so when the thigh's parted thee rain started Pouring fiercely .. more and more with every utterly of the sinful desires " harder, harder, harder! " with every furious thrust thee sky would screech loudly with its voice ..[Thunder].. placing an extreme emphasis on the mood , setting and intensity . ]

[Page 18.]

[Cont.]

[Biffle XO]

time = january 20, 2009 9:10

[Once upon a time .... there was this very special girl . everytime id look into her eyes and get losts in beautiful summer skies and

every touch would warm my soul and make my skin sing like a canary and

these kisses reminded me of those cold winters in front of the fire . with every shiver and cold feeling a certain warmth and type of affection would follow and 

the most precious moment is the last moment i see you at the end of the day which remains to me to be seen as a fleeting fall evening leaves falling , wind blowing but still ever so gorgeous with a unique orange sunset .]

[Page 17.]

[Cont.]

[war amongst the elements and men]

Time = Jan 19. 2009 9:27 P.M.

[Chi 地 , Sui (Mizu) 水 , Ka (Hi)火 , Kaze(Fū)風 , Kū (Sora)空 ... 

We are the ones whom prance around your perfect world making all things Possible . We See and Hear everything ... Sitting back watching as your recklessness consumes our paradise ... OUR home 

we warned you by allowing Chi to pound the ground and crumble your homes , by allowing Mizu to sink your cities and I Myself left my peaceful existence to rattle your senses and with the help of others caused disasters and catastrophes leaving you trembling in fear poundering when, where, and how we will strike next leaving your imaginations to grasp the impossible and fathom what our next entity will bestow upon thee.空

maybe Ka and i will rain scorging embers of hell upon your shrude cancerous existences and ravage your cities , states , provinces , countries , continents and burn them to the ground , or chi will unleash his full potential and break apart your land masses but these are simply nothing more then our declaration of war .]

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Chi [earth]地 
Sui / Mizu [Water]水 
Ka / Hi [Fire]火 
Fū / kaze [Wind]風 
Kū / sora [Void]空
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[Page 16.]

[reference for page 17.]

Chi

地 Chi (sometimes ji) or tsuchi, meaning "Earth", represents the hard, solid objects of the world. The most basic example of chi is in a stone. Stones are highly resistant to movement or change, as is anything heavily influenced by chi. In people, the bones, muscles and tissues are represented by chi. Emotionally, chi is predominantly associated with stubbornness, stability, physicality, and gravity. In the mind, it is confidence; and emotionally it is a desire to have things remain as they are; a resistance to change. When under the influence of this chi mode or "mood", we are aware of our own physicality and sureness of action. (Note: This is a separate concept from the energy-force, pronounced in Chinese as qì (or di) and in Japanese as ki, and written alternatively as 気, 氣, or 气.)


Sui

水 Sui or mizu, meaning "Water", represents the fluid, flowing, formless things in the world. Outside of the obvious example of rivers and the like, plants are also categorized under sui, as they adapt to their environment, growing and changing according to the direction of the sun and the changing seasons. Blood and other bodily fluids are represented by sui, as are mental or emotional tendencies towards adaptation and change. sui can be associated with emotion, defensiveness, adaptability, flexibility, suppleness, and magnetism.


Ka

火 Ka or hi, meaning "Fire", represents the energetic, forceful, moving things in the world. Animals, particularly predators, capable of movement and full of forceful energy, are primary examples of ka objects. Bodily, ka represents our metabolism and body heat, and in the mental and emotional realms, it represents drive and passion. ka can be associated with motivation, desire, intention, and an outgoing spirit. Besides the obvious examples of heat and flame, lightning can also be thought of as an extension of Ka.

 
Fū

風 Fū or kaze, meaning "Wind", represents things that grow, expand, and enjoy freedom of movement. Aside from air, smoke, and the like, fū can in some ways be best represented by the human mind. As we grow physically, we learn and expand mentally as well, in terms of our knowledge, our experiences, and our personalities. Fū represents breathing, and the internal processes associated with respiration. Mentally and emotionally, it represents an "open-minded" attitude and carefree feeling. It can be associated with will, elusiveness, evasiveness, benevolence, compassion, and wisdom.


Kū

空 Kū or sora, most often translated as "Void", but also meaning "sky" or "Heaven", represents those things beyond our everyday experience, particularly those things composed of pure energy. Bodily, kū represents spirit, thought, and creative energy. It represents our ability to think and to communicate, as well as our creativity. It can also be associated with power, creativity, spontaneity, and inventiveness.

Kū is of particular importance as the highest of the elements. In martial arts, particularly in fictional tales where the fighting discipline is blended with magic or the occult, one often invokes the power of the Void to connect to the quintessential creative energy of the world. A warrior properly attuned to the Void can sense his surrounding and act without thinking, and without using his physical senses.

[Page 15.]

[Cont.]

[ Survive / Valkyrie ]

Time - Dec. 3 2008 3:16 a.m.

[ When I say " Kindness is no virtue and cruelty is no vice " this is the precise notion my minds tells me to follow 

as we dance through these Hollowed fields in a rhythmic march , hell beneath reaches for us and the heavens smile , high with adrenaline and plagued by anxiety waiting for the moment of victory or for the song of the valkyrie to be sang from above ..either or is enough for us to stand firm with excitement . 

The clocks stops ticking , the cloud shield the heavens , and time stands still with the roar of our comrades fully embraced by the glory of what awaits us . swords darkened by our will to fight and shields hardened by our instincts to survive , with every swing our souls roar louder waiting to be heard and when the skies part victory will be ours , the valkyrie will sing with such blee urging us to move forward past the ashes of our enemies

..............this day marks the beginning of a conquest and the first of many victories ]

[Page 14.]

[Cont.]

[Big Bang]

Time = Dec. 3 2008 - 2:46 am 

[ When i once read " Fear is the element that unites all losers " i perged myself of fear and drowned my soul in courage walking with a blatant fearlessness standing tall amongst men and looking down on giants waiting to grip the thrown as a god so one day mortals can gaze up and stare upon me as if i were the moon forever out of reach and on another level able implode and explode with pure energy .... strength from deep down in my soul so with a wave of my hand i can induce blackouts and the utteriing of other worldly words to emerge and surge forth through the likes of all souls and cause them to hit the floor and kneel ]

[Page 13.]

[Cont.]

" [Godlessness]

Damn it It all for eternity ... why do i exist in such a realm where godlessness rules and has always ruled ? all that i cherrish shall perish ... All that i once loved has perished and faded into into oblivion leaving me Alone . everyone....... my loyalty was unrivaled , my loved couldnt be fathomed , my words were divine and truthfull yet im alone ... to me they have all died and remain that way no burials ... no graves ... no ashes .... no trace .... just an oblivious memory that has been scortched into my memory with the fires of tartarus ...all things i joyfully held close me and enbedded into my soul have vanished .... perged clean of ME .... I exist with no fate .... unmei nashi 

" Damn this GODLESSNESS " I shout then i calm myself once again to acknowledge my roars will do nothing will change nothing ...No even a little ....

" DAMN IT ! DAMN IT ALL TO HADES " I say 

How do i escape a room with no doors see a sky blocked by the sinful desires and selfish thoughts of others...[Godlessness]


then i ask myself " Is this why you flee my existence ... ANGEL ... Perette ... 輩 ... All of you betrayed me . For reasons unknown ...but what is known ... things within this realm of godlessness ... all these things are simple things that happen and will happen whether it be deception that pries up apart or the riches of this world " 

Damn It !! I blame this godlessness ... I was flawless , i adapted and changed , yet still i lose . SHIT !! I will not deny That - i was born with the will to win and given the ability to be a king and with this strength i will DIE a GOD ..

Maybe this godlessness will fade when i fill this void . maybe others will not suffer agony or share these illnesses of the heart .. just maybe.... "

[Bam im done]

[Page 12.]

[Other forms of  works]

"This Battlefield reeks of death and the air is filled with desperate cries of mercy and agony yet i still stand here poised and peaceful smiling drenched in blood and filled with so much bliss hoping this never ends and the fun continues for that this is my Sanctuary "

" February 4th 1987

the clouds tensed , the skys roars ,and lightening dances. an ominous red-orange spreads through the atmosphere and the sky's peel back bathing the surface with the warm nectar of life .. but not all life just human and animal life ... BLOOD . Death spreads , disease ravages ,chaos erupts and a new addition is brought into this world ..........

[Death.Thee.Kid]  "

"  When Thee.Kid is Dead and Gone , long and forgotten 
what he stood for will stand firm , The passion from his words will still rage , and Thee confident and defiant look in his eyes will still shimmer and be seen in ...


Vicki.His.Raito " <- for my daughter

[Page 11.]

[Cont.]

" Standing Beside Myself Baring witness to the Embers of my very own Desires Casting Ghastly images of agony onto my Soul, Unable to relinquish These incurable cancers once called ... Love ... Affection ... Which Weakens this Walking Carcass of mines And causes ripples to ravage my Lake of tranquility And taint my Purity [pause] My Days are long and agonizing and Nights Simply unbearable While I tremble something fearsome Frighten of Repeating these Forsaken Trends sewn Deeply into the very seams of my fabric [Pause]  My World Grows ever more terrifying filled with violent disturbances and turbulences Casting me Astray to seek refuge then Freedom from this cursed existence to be alone … Misunderstood … And completely oblivious to those around me [Pause] My Axis is unusually Unstable and my Universe is Slowly corroding And Collapsing under the strain to Maintain this lie in which I use to shroud myself in a False Peace and lull myself into ignorance filled slumber [Pause]"

[Page 10.]

[Cont.]

" I am no longer humane nor civilized , I am more of a bestial figure that sends fear running through your mind

But yet i'm not a beast , I am Sword frozen without emotion , All i know is pain and pain is all i offer

i have no sheath , no requiem , no place to seek shelter just a cold world which drives me insane with every moment i spend seeking my sheath "

-

" I am Humanity painted into one portrait depicting harmonizing tranquility , i am the refuge you seek to protect you from the cold and insanity 

yet i am not angelic , but merely a sheath filled with warmth , i am the love you are filled with and peace you maintain 

I have no sword in which to shield , i am not complete nor whole .. my existence is haltered so i seek the sword to complete me "

[Page 9.]

[Random quotes and others]

" As I remain blinded by my Agony , buried by sorrow and drowning in self pity "

"As I Swiftly step thru life darkness consumes my light leaving me alone seeking answers "

" With your ill comparisons and over exaggerations i see mad fabrications cured by my vaccination called reality , gifted with a flow spit from the true beasts caged and shackled within . the kid is the truest with a duality and split personalities leaving saliva leaking while the audience is flabbergasted . " -11:17pm Nov 23rd

" I'm on top like missionary but the mission is to not stay stationary and Continue to elevate no matter the consequence - my soul is bruised and battered yet i remain fearless /relentless unable to relinquish the stride to the top although all of you doubted me from day one . Ground zero i am the new plague spreading like rumors in tabloids - providing altoids to the opposition spitting raw bullshit - i know im greasy slipping through the grasp of defeat and remaining flawless in this game - A sublime style but never known for spitting innuendos / Too bold coming live and direct with disrespect not giving a fuck . "-4:34 am Dec. 15

[Page 8.]

[Cont.]

Org. Date :  Nov. 19, 2007

" Love Is eternal And Ripples Through time For an Eternity With An illustrious Luster That out shines even the most elegant Stars and illuminates the Darkest regions of ones soul , purifying Corrupted Spirits -

Yet Something so Beautiful Be can be So treacherous Blinding the truth that lies in front and the truths within -

Sometimes plain of sight and infront yet so elusive and out of reach -Why Does Something so pure Remain hidden within in a mist of Uncertainity and lies ? "

[Page 7.]

[Cont]

[org. date : May 2 2007]

Name : Dark side of thee universe

Behind darkened skies i rise to avoid my inner demise , now are you surprised to see this devious grin when you thought i met my destruction ,

I Cant be destroyed simply postponned and delayed for that i am the reaper whom cant be killed nor destroyed , My eyes bare this sorrow but my soul bares this anger and bitterness , while my hands are stained by the blood which once flowed thru the likes of men and women old or young but this is something i embraced .....

when i searched through the inner lengths of my forsaken soul and realized i am nothing like you i exist in a time far ahead of your comprehension and in a world of darkness that you couldn't bare but I've grown strong and accustom to this side .........

[Page 6.]

[Cont.]

[org. date Jan 10, 2007]

As I reside In my eternal coffin stricken by my thoughts of ... Maybe i want tranquility and peace of mind , or ever lasting happiness .... but I'm struck down by reality and lifted by bitterness 

I'm often forced to stare upon such a despicable sight such as myself , watching shadows casted upon my once sun filled days and see nothing more then a mere shell filled with hostility and resentment and driven by hate . 

But how am i to grasp such a simple goal enveloped in a paradox which leaves me hunched over many nights with rivers of tears swirling underneath my feet ...

My despair steals my breath now im buried in my sorrow and drowning in anger 

Now I sigh and gaze into oblivion restlessly pondering my next move but this move is not apparent I'm too strong to fade into nothingness yet lost in A feeble heart which chills my spine .....

[Page 5.]

[Cont. from where pg 2 left off]

" i once wanted to be whole , to be one ....but this couldn't happen without having an other Half ...............

So as i move thru walls of shadows and doubt i become cold to keep the world around from hurting me yet Warm to allow that half to find me.........

Firm to stand for what i believe in yet soft to be able to believe in something other then me .........

When I find that one piece to make me whole her smile will melt away my ice that surrounds my heart , my walls of logic with her words , my emptiness with her touch , and allow prosperous times to grow from fields once made from my despair "

[Page 4.]

[Cont. fromw here pg 2 left off]

So as i move thru walls of shadows and doubt i become cold to keep the world around from hurting me yet Warm to allow that half to find me.........

Firm to stand for what i believe in yet soft to be able to believe in something other then me .........

When I find that one piece to make me whole her smile will melt away my ice that surrounds my heart , my walls of logic with her words , my emptiness with her touch , and allow prosperous times to grow from fields once made from my despair "
]

[Page 3.]

[Quotes]

A Group Of Quotes I conceived for no apparent reasons 




" I am nothing nice i don't want to be like nor loved but feared and respected , my strength is eternal , and my hatred is strength "


" In Life we Often become what we may fear the most 
But fear isn't needed nor is it an option 
accept your fate and let the change be complete " 

" Of all the Torture endured and Punishment Taken Love is by far the worst conceived , 
Because it can Elevate you to a level of bliss that far surpasses heaven , 
yet drop you beneath an a grave and devour even the most sane of men and women "


" While I lie impassive my soul remains in a state decadence while future generations shall prosper from my demise "

[Page 2.]

[Cont. from Page 1]

My soul burns with thoughts of casting this lifetime into oblivion

as its swells with hatred filling lungs with the stench of decadent carcases

filling my sight with fields of despair and my ears with winds of scream and cries

But then I awake to this cancerous existence that leaves me ill and growing with an unbearable animosity

Diseased thoughts plague my entire being sending fleeting cancerous bile upon my subconscious drowning my sanity

and awaking my inner self , smiling upon agony as if it were sinful yet blissful sex

I have no heart

i no longer possess a conscience

I see no sincerity in me

Just a newly appointed king of a freezing hatred that decays all that crosses

Nothing remains but remnants of my former self and My inner being enveloped in hatred

Death is imminent

For that death is advent

[Page 1.]

[Earlier works]

Life bares a tremendous burden on ones tranquil soul
Poised by agony but strengthen by hatred
love is nothing more then a mere hopeless stride for fools gold
Yet I've fallen prey to the cold hearted world inwhich consumes even the most righteous of souls
and turns them into nothing more then a corrupted shell that feels no pain
no sorrow
no bliss
but just exist to cause more pain
Yet i cannot run away from the fact that this is what ive become

[Introductions]

Ello  , ths was made with thee sole intent to broadcast my writing as well as conveymy thoughts on various topics . so with that said im gone .

-Thee.Kid